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Free Form Fiction

by Demeanor

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1.
Free Form 06:02
I can't find my way, the light's too bright. You tried to experience this life in a way that you couldn't face. Now you've begun my life of disgrace. Spiral down, a single prop comprised of unfulfillment. The sky turned red. An orphan now, I watched you burn the forest down. I watched these waves of fire dance around my father. I wish I knew what to do. But I'm just a kid with no direction. My North Star just split in two. She died, but you were alive. Withering away is different from making a decision. She died but you were alive. Withering away is different from making a decision. I've always dreamt of journeying to the stars. But the ground anchored genetic chains, to my heart. Even the whitest lie is stained by the blackest vice. You left me all alone. Even the whitest lie, stained by the blackest vice. Even the whitest lie, stained by the blackest vice. Watching these waves crash in on themselves. Finding myself in chaos, it's all I've really known. How could you do this to me, burned down my infancy. Now I have nowhere to go; no one to own. Tear a hole in the sky. I watched you burn the forest down. Suffering inside all of the lies that you told me in envy. I watched you burn the forest down. She died but you were alive. Withering away is different from making a decision. Red and blue fill the air, while the trees mock me. The man and woman with stars on their hearts have come to take me away. Put me to sleep and I will start to believe that, in fact, life's a dream. Insanity. Put me to sleep and I will start to believe that, in fact, life's a dream. That is what you proved to me. Wrapped in cloth, they took me away. I thought I heard one say to the other, "I'm not sure how this will turn out."
2.
Korriban 05:07
Everything that I thought that I knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of me. Everything that I thought that I knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of me. Everything that I thought that I knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of me. Everything that I thought that I knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of me. We all hang in the balance of prosperity and arrogance, it holds us back. Visions of progression are held right in front of our faces, but we're still running in place. No, we never move our feet. All talk and no movement. Forget the gravity. I cannot stay, in one play for more than a day. But is it a day or a month they can take me anyway. It's something you know, it's something that you can't find. I have seen the way that we fall into pieces at the seams. (We were wrong / All along). Life can't progress when you're inside my head. Now I know we're all dead. I feel nocturnal. Everyone is pregnant with daylight. It seems so hysterical to me. I feel nocturnal. Everything is going dark. I can't help myself from thinking that this is meaningless. It's something you know, it's something that you can't find. I have seen the way that we fall into pieces at the seams. (We were wrong / All along. ) Everything that you thought that you knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of you. Everything that you thought that you knew before. It's all been wasting away. Right in front of your fucking eyes.
3.
So tired of running, but is it worth staying? The cross on the front door, this man that I can't ignore. You judge me, but you don't know me. How can you blame me when you would do the same thing? Separate the just man from the ruse. My father couldn't so how can you? Black or blue, either way you will always lose. Put yourself in my shoes. A choral call in righteous piety. Strength in fertility, sex and vulgarity. But what do I know? Father, spare me. I can't even seem to make people love me. Would you believe any of this too? You can't save anyone when you’re the bullet that needs to be dogged. Both of us. I don't know who I am. You can't help but pretend. I've made my personality by stealing parts from my friends. I don't know who I am. You can't help but pretend. I've made my personality by stealing parts from my friends. I can't reset. No not again. I can't reset. No not again. No, I don't have a whole in my chest. There's just nothing there to see, no emotional meat. Don't patronize or criticize me when you’re calling touches boys still learning to pee. Get out… Get out… Get out my face, you don't care about me. You don't care about me. But what if I do? Listen close. The man in the black and white collar says he has a purpose for me. Is it possible that I've found peace? The sun has never looked so bright until today. That's alright. Maybe life was a dream, either way I don't care. Decide to stay or fly. I'm taking to the skies. Motion and focus, straight towards an opus. In and out, up and down. Either way, I'm ready now. Now that I've broken through that dark patch of cloud, it's so great to hear the sound of my heart beating so loud. It's beating so loud. I'm ready now. It's been so long and we've crumbled so many walls. I remember the days when I used to stay up all night and cry (to you saying) "Promise me that you won't ever leave me. It's just because I am so lonely at heart and I've been abandoned so many times by the ones who said they'd always be there, right from the start."
4.
We go live in three, two, one.... My friends my friends. Am I begging for your audience? You ought to know everything is not what it seems. We put too much faith into each other. Our dreams make the world a stage. Whatever happened to changing things. Pseudo Heroes of a new generation. Visionaries of emancipation, but so framed to the core. How far would you go to be noticed. (Yeah! Yeah!) Were drawn together by the disguise. These words will get through one way or another. You can't keep me closed off forever. Wax people shining in the sunlight. Like dominoes, we always fall. Look at me in the screen, tumbling round and round. My body will break, just give me some time. I've made a name for myself, right? I had never thought about thinking, I know, it's not alright. What do i have to show after all these years. Nothing you couldn't buy. You gave me everything and I sold it all away. You have me everything and I sold it all away. Hero of a new generation, visionary of emancipation. I can't believe, what's happened to me, What everyone sees, what I believed. I can't believe, it all changed so quickly, My dreams turned into dust, as I rose to the top Why can't you see, the way your hearts belong to me? They all say "I love to watch you win", So tune your ears in and everyone else out. Pay attention to the words I'm spewing. All and all, life is a game. Losing your faith to the silver screen, You proclaimed your love for me. And as you watch me, either way, remember, this isn't how I wanted to be. In the city of Angels. In the city of Angels. In the city of Angels In the city of Angels were celebrating all the sinners. In the city of Angels were celebrating all the sinners. Listen to when I tell you my end is near. I'm trapped in my mind I'm sick of saying it, trapped in my… I'm trapped in my mind I'm sick of saying it, I'm trapped in my mind I'm sick of saying it, FUCK! It's all over now. Hello to my goodbye. I'm fine. Cut scene.
5.
Spiral Down 04:59
Hello. I woke up today in what was yesterday, but I never really found out what that meant. I'm breaking in half, all I know is that the grass is always grayer and life is not for me, so go away. Dreaming of meaning in the sun, basking in the sorrow of the moon. Dreaming of meaning in the sun, basking in the sorrow of the moon. There's nothing that I can do. I tore a hole in the sky I'm feeling dead in every way. I'm feeling dead in every way. (Where am I? Where have you been?) Why'd it take so long to realize that there was no one else out there? The tragedy of me is that I'm too broken to be. A shattered cup can't hold anything anymore. Forget my name, let my face fade (like a whore out the door). Why couldn't you love yourself enough to love me? To weak to change, so out of hand. The birds in the sky never ponder whether they'll see the day or die in the sand. Now that I've fallen and hit the ground, it has embraced me and sent me on my way. It's something I knew, (It's something I knew) And chose not to find. It's something I knew, (It's something I knew) And chose not to find. I have left it all behind... But before I go, I want to see you all and all your green and blue. Just to know what I'm not missing. But before I go, I want to see you all and all your green and blue. Just to know what I'm not missing. Yeah There's nothing that I would do. Goodbye.
6.
Oh mama, you slipped right through my finger tips. Oh father what can I say? Take a look in my eyes. Break the atmosphere. I'm reaching a new kind of high. I'm leaving here. Big blue ball of filth. You're dead to me now. A place that I once called home. I'll find eternal rest in the clouds. You soon won't see me. I'll be a speck in the crowd. Antigravity. Nothing will hold me down. Life. Death. And all in between. Life. Death. And all in between. He only tried to make me better, but he didn't know, that we were stained by an amaranthine emptiness. Red eyes the red die. I can't imagine a place I'd rather be than in the silence. I want to forget all the bad memories I've had down there. I've made my decision. No turning back. I will finally be alone. Alone. Don't you know that hair grows over night. So simple; finality at its height. A carnival for the eyes of the obscene. Let the camera roll and burn down the city. Here we go! Sit down and fade out. I don't ever want to hide or be found. We all die some day. So why not go off with a bang. Fade out! I can't imagine a place I'd rather be than in the silence. I want to forget all the bad memories I've had down there. I've made my... I'll take a look in your eyes. I'll break your atmosphere. You're heading up to the sky. You're leaving...Upwards. IM GONE.
7.
Null & Void 06:04
You're looking for a meaning inside yourself, when you body will return back to dust. Everyone you know will suffer the same fate. This life is one way. I believe in the nothingness of everything, and the veil it holds over the eye; an illusion, a dream of life waiting to die. Follow the faith of an ancient race and it will lead you to nothing. Its the oldest story in the book, the light that fights the darkness. Misunderstood, the scale tips. Energy is spent on two sides of the same coin. And I have found my way, through the light. Free forming fiction in our minds. It's open to interpretation. All of the things that we've seen and done, transformed into a story of who we become. Free forming fiction in our minds. It's open to interpretation. All of the things that we've seen and done, transformed into a story of who we become. Reality is changing. Slowly shifting. Everyday new. Everyday different. We have to clear our minds. Think freely. Think without feeling. I burned the forest down. I burned the forest down. I burned the- I can't see the light, because there is only darkness around me. Inside this absence lies the truth that I'll never be who I need to be. I can't see the light, because there is only darkness around me. Inside this absence lies the truth that I'll never be who I need to be.

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released July 15, 2016

Recorded by WILL GUTHIER
Produced, Mixed, & Mastered by MATT DAVENPORT @ ICE KING STUDIOS
Select lyrical help by ANDREW BARNES & QUANTE TELL
Select song writing help by ZACH JOHNSON

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Demeanor Baltimore, Maryland

Maryland-based 3-piece progressive metalcore band. Second debut EP "Free Form Fiction" available now!

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